Mixed Thoughts

It certainly has been a while. I've felt as though there hasn't been much to write about, although I know there certainly is every day Life to write about.

I have found myself addicted to this song:

I love this man's voice. I love this band. I've found the other 2 recordings they have recorded, and their work is FANTASTIC. The band's name: Bastille. Definitely check them out. I REALLY hope they record some more stuff and become more widely known!

Tonight, Keeper and I are traveling to Appleton, to go to my "twin"'s bridal shower... Well, I'm going to the shower... Keeper gets to amuse himself in Appleton for two hours. This is going to be my first time back in town since January 2010. I have some mixed feelings about it.

This is the first time Keeper and I are going anywhere out of town for more than the day. And we're going to the most recent town that I lived in. There are still people there that I'd rather avoid. And there are some others that I would truly enjoy seeing.

I am a little anxious. I think it almost has nothing to do with Keeper, though. Looking back at every other "trip" I've taken, my mother and I would both always get stressed out for some reason, and there would always be some small argument before we left for our destination. I feel as though some of my anxiety and stress currently may be due to this feeling of waiting for that stupid little argument. I don't think that it will actually happen, and I'm working very hard to not do anything that may cause a fight. I think we'll be okay.

It feels good to have an open space to write all of this and get it out of my head. I feel much better when I get everything out. Between this open blog and the private story, my emotions and thoughts have a chance to escape my heart and my head, and for those who care to read them, a chance for some other perspective to enter everyone else's minds.

I think, overall, today will be good.